Winter Break

The first day of Winter Break is always filled with excitement and a sense of promise.  I tend to make plans to read x amount of books or complete or even start projects that will be finished by the time I must return to the working world on January 3rd.  At times I am successful.  


However, I've noticed a trend with myself lately.  Perhaps you do this too.  Do you ever find yourself making a list for the sake of making a list?  I mean, after making a list sometimes the feeling of accomplishment that I get from my desire to be successful is enough of a euphoria to keep me going.  So much so that I sometimes neglect the list.  Counterproductive I know, but such a trap.  


Well, in addition to my desire to re-find organization, I would also like to find my friend follow through. Like most moms, I find myself willing to do anything and everything for others in all facets of my life.  I'm the first to volunteer to spear head something or answer a question or find the answer to a question.  I'm the first to go out of my way to make sure you are happy and satisfied and I'll double check on you to make sure you are still satisfied.  You get the point.  But when it comes to me, I'm last on the list.  


When I first found out I was going to be a mommy, this was one of the things that I vowed to myself that I would try NOT to do.  I've seen so many moms lose their identity in their children and their family.  While I do agree that your focus changes to your family and children when you become a mom, I don't think that you have to lose your identity to them.  Just as moms desire for their children to have their own identity and sense of belonging and purpose, why not model that best by doing it themselves.  I believe that when moms or any person for that matter, models what they are preaching, it is the most effective lesson and testimony.  


All this to say, I want to follow through on my resolve to invest as much time and energy into myself as I pour into my family.  


And, I'm headed to the library today to pick a good book or two. :)